Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

The weight that spans my shoulders weighs heavy upon my heart. In a series of almost comedic events my life went from that of hope, peacefulness and routines,  to one of chaos,  hopelessness and fear. I could have avoided all of this if only my building management had informed me immediately of the non-payment of my rent. By their delaying me notice until late September,  I had then accumulated August,September and October's payment all at once. An impossibility considering my income.  And now I am mere days away from losing all my material possessions and the psychological trauma of being homeless with a thirteen year old son.   I have tried all the various resources to no avail.  I am a victim of that social services hole between disability and pension.  Too young to be old and too old to be young. Soon I must face the surgeon's scalpel.  Not once, but at the least twice.  A kidney removal and gall bladder.  I am not strong enough to battle this battle with

The weight that spans my shoulders weighs heavy upon my heart. In a series of almost comedic events my life went from that of hope, peacefulness and routines,  to one of chaos,  hopelessness and fear. I could have avoided all of this if only my building management had informed me immediately of the non-payment of my rent. By their delaying me notice until late September,  I had then accumulated August,September and October's payment all at once. An impossibility considering my income.  And now I am mere days away from losing all my material possessions and the psychological trauma of being homeless with a thirteen year old son.   I have tried all the various resources to no avail.  I am a victim of that social services hole between disability and pension.  Too young to be old and too old to be young. Soon I must face the surgeon's scalpel.  Not once, but at the least twice.  A kidney removal and gall bladder.  I am not strong enough to battle this battle with

I AM TIRED. ....VERY TIRED ​As I sit here fighting this demon at three o'clock in the morning,  I am totally ashamed and disgusted with myself for what I have done to my life and the affect it has upon my child. I cannot recall one minute of my past existence that can compare to the disaster which I now am living. I am lost. I am broken.  I am repairable and I know which path I should be walking on, but I cannot repair myself.  Deep down inside I am struggling with a very dark entity and I am riddled with guilt,  shame, weakness and dangerous emotions. I know I am mentally  stronger than most people.  I know that all things must pass I know I will never take the cowards way out of this sorrow.  I know that I am truly loved by many, many beautiful souls, for it is their love and friendship that fuels my fighter and  logical self. BUT ...... I must confess that I am weak -  I am so very tired.   I fear I have not the psychological  nor physical strength left in me

I have never been so embarrassed in my life but I am in a very bad crisis in my life and am in desperate need of assistance and/or  a miracle. Here is a link to the gofundme page that will explain. http://www.gofundme.com/need-help-stabilizing-my-life-2uywn3rc