Many people do not understand what they call “Mental Health“.
How do you explain the battle with your demons to someone that has been trained to believe that ‘different‘ is wrong?
Is ‘different‘ wrong?
Because to we who suffer through the constant battle of ‘personality disorders‘ YOU are the ‘different‘ one.
I do not believe in any of the labels society has placed on people.
I DO believe we all suffer from personality ‘conflicts’.
Every soul on this planet suffers the same stresses and have the same emotions as everyone else. We all live in the same space/time continuum. We all eat, drink and breathe the same.
We are all homo sapiens living on the same Big Blue Marble.
I have many demons who are constantly looking to diminish my everyday life. They do their best to bring anger, tears, sorrow and carelessness to the forefront.
I do get tired of battling them. I do give up on occasions.
I don’t want to, but, I get tired.
Damn, I get tired.
Real tired! I am tired now.
I have no fight left in me.
Which leaves me in a quandary.
Do I wear myself out and try to stay “LightHouse“?
Or do I walk backwards and become “Shake“?
Or do I escape into my mind and live life as “Dann“?
Or should I allow my mind to burst and revert to the infant “Boo Boo“?
Boo Boo works, spend the rest of my years as a parentless child with a shitty diaper and speaking only gibberish.
Dann presents problems because he is fake as can be. The smiling face society says is ‘proper‘.
LightHouse is who I strived to be. He is a nice man. Educated, loyal and truthful.
Unfortunately.
LightHouse gets hurt often.
His smile is real. The reason he smiles is because society shuns those who do not wear the mask of the sheep.
But, I am no “sheep“.
Yes, I am having what you perceive as “psychological” disorders.
The disorders being that I refuse to be fake and I will not be commanded, I will not be controlled and I definitely will not let my life go on without a little help from my soul.
I will go on – maybe – maybe not.
I have published the fourth and closing chapter of my life – “Unkz, A Canadian Cosmonaut”.
My ‘Walk With Dann Collection‘ shows well the battles I have fought trying to conform to the sheepdom of society life.
Now, if I were to die tomorrow, and no one were to remember me, there lays a permanent record of my lives and my seven previous deaths.
Forever out there in paper form and the evil virtual reality of the unrealistic internet.
We need to stop labelling.
We need to stop being clones of each others perceptions.
Simple as that.
Namaste’
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