Another Monday's Wisdom

           

"There is no ‘Light’ in my eyes."

The above picture was taken 5 years ago.

I had just gotten off of life support. (Again!).

My spleen had literally exploded. For no apparent reason.

Adding to the trauma, I had begun the experimental radical radiation treatments for my cancers.

I would endure 80 sessions in 20 days .2 back to back sessions every morning and 2 six hours later. Nonstop for 20 days.

I was struggling mentally and physically.

Look at my eyes, they have no emotion.

The exploding spleen took it’s toll on my body. I bled out, needed 16 units of blood, dropped dead, was resuscitated and dependent upon life support for the tenth time and the battle for my life was beginning to become a tough road.

And look at me now 5 years later, still standing,  still battling cancer,  a couple of years back I died one more time, making that 11 times, resuscitation, life support, the advanced osteoporosis and all my other ailments and issues.

I am at peace with the pain and tragedy that plagues my life. It has been the one ‘constant‘ in my life. From birth to now.

And I am fine with that and all the above.

All I have experienced and survived has opened my life to peace and tranquility.

I am ‘humbled’, simple as that.

I am also grateful beyond words.

They say that we are never given more than we can handle.

If that be the truth then I should have been born with a wheelbarrow, for life has been a heavy load upon the backbone of my existence.

Yet, I am no more special than you, or anyone else.

Why would I be?

We are who we are.

We are not who we pretend to be.

We are all the same, yet no two of us are alike.

No soul is lesser than nor greater than than the soul of another.

We are all equal but we are hindered by our genetic human fallacies.

Our genetically instilled greed and dominance leads us to the bigotry and judgmental behaviors that we so easily display numerous times day.

Until we can evolve past this need to  be the “king of the castle“, we will forever have conflict and aggression in our society.

Be true to yourself and also to life itself.

Practise compassion, truthfulness, forgiveness and integrity.

Ignore deceit,  bigotry, judgements, violence and hate.

Be who you are and who you hope to become. At all times.

Not only as a ploy to obtain an objective. That is deception and of extreme dishonesty. No good can come from that.

The traumas of these past 5 years taught me many things.

The most important of all I learned is that if you want a good life, then become a good person.

Not only when people are near,  but even when you are completely alone.

Since I became the ‘Dann‘ that I now am, my life has been Blessed.

The constant chronic pain and the diseases are a reality. Real is real.

I refuse to allow the cancers, the traumas or such things to define or affect who I am or who I am to become.

Life is a precious gift and I am humbled and grateful for the life I have.

I am “Dann“.

Just as I am.