I AM TIRED ........ SO VERY TIRED
I AM TIRED. ....VERY TIRED As I sit here fighting this demon at three o'clock in the morning, I am totally ashamed and disgusted with myself for what I have done to my life and the affect it has upon my child. I cannot recall one minute of my past existence that can compare to the disaster which I now am living. I am lost. I am broken. I am repairable and I know which path I should be walking on, but I cannot repair myself. Deep down inside I am struggling with a very dark entity and I am riddled with guilt, shame, weakness and dangerous emotions. I know I am mentally stronger than most people. I know that all things must pass I know I will never take the cowards way out of this sorrow. I know that I am truly loved by many, many beautiful souls, for it is their love and friendship that fuels my fighter and logical self. BUT ...... I must confess that I am weak - I am so very tired. I fear I have not the ps...