Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

Stress is killing me. Literally. Those who know me understand why I say this. Medically, since November 11th, 2016,  I have battled through nine kidney surgical procedures. Including one that became infected and resulted with damaging my heart. My first Laparoscopic Surgery My heart has been iffy since an electrical accident in 1989, whereas I suffered electrocution resulting in a major heart attack. For eighteen months I suffered with pericarditis. Then came 1999. The most tragic year of my life. During the month of February I noticed that with every step I took I felt a “shock” up my spine. On March the fourth it became so severe I attended the emergency department at my local hospital. March the fifth I was in surgery having my C2, C3, c5 and C6 dissected.  They used bone from my hip and Titanium Semple plates to re-build my neck. I was five foot nine before the surgery and five foot seven after. I passed away during the operation. After a forty ...

As I sit here on this sunny Sunday gazing out at my beloved Scarborough – that East Side slab of the Greater Toronto Area, I ponder.  The GTA is famous for having as many trees as people.  Below is a few pictures of the average view from any point in this marvelous city within a city. As you can see, it’s a concrete jungle with a  green laced frock. People  forget to look around at times.  Walking their paths with their mind on their money and money on their mind.  Heads forcibly bent down waiting for the next electronic message. Blinded by the hustle and bustle of modern day survival.  Prisoners of busy lifestyle and the constant worry of “How will I make it till cheque day”. This saddens me.  I am a victim, also. Many days I sit on the balcony oblivious to the trees, the birds and even the squirrels dancing to and fro. Do the others hear the constant wail of sirens? I do. Each one bothers me as I am prejudiced into ...

"What is wrong with people?" "What is happening to society?" I ask these questions constantly, for I just do not comprehend what is taking place in our world. We have been raising youth for at least two generations who seem to think they are owed everything and should not have to work for it. THE GREATEST DEFECT IN MODERN SOCIETY IS "POLITICAL CORRECTNESS" . It is a very disheartening state of affairs when hurting someone's feelings takes precedent over what is the proper and " right " action to take. The modern day train of thought is unreal. There shall never be a Utopian society in our so-called ' modern ' world. Mankind is still too infantile to get past our genetically instilled want for superiority over each other. Our ' religious ' misconception that the ' church' is always right and all political parties are always ' corrupt '. Let us take a peak at, say, the Art of Catholicism ..... ...

I AM TIRED. ....VERY TIRED ​As I sit here fighting this demon at three o'clock in the morning,  I am totally ashamed and disgusted with myself for what I have done to my life and the affect it has upon my child. I cannot recall one minute of my past existence that can compare to the disaster which I now am living. I am lost. I am broken.  I am repairable and I know which path I should be walking on, but I cannot repair myself.  Deep down inside I am struggling with a very dark entity and I am riddled with guilt,  shame, weakness and dangerous emotions. I know I am mentally  stronger than most people.  I know that all things must pass I know I will never take the cowards way out of this sorrow.  I know that I am truly loved by many, many beautiful souls, for it is their love and friendship that fuels my fighter and  logical self. BUT ...... I must confess that I am weak -  I am so very tired.   I fear I have not the ps...

Imagine if you thought today was actually tomorrow and then realized it was actually yesterday. Confusing pondering for sure. Such is my mindset when I gaze upon modern society. I am dumbfounded as to why the vast majority either sees not or chooses not to show concern. Whatever happened to love thy neighbour? Whatever became of lending a helping hand? Where has honour above all dispersed to? I look at the world we have created for my sons and I worry.  I worry that they will mature with the mindsets that violence happens, marriages are disposable and respect is a fable.  So, every night I drift into R.E.M. with a kaleidoscope of fears and anxieties dancing through the windmills of my mind. And I worry for my babies. I am frightened for what they may have to experience in their adulthood's because we, the priors, had no sensibility. Do you worry? Do you have the moxy to change what we have instilled into the id of our youth? Me thinks we best get ...

So, touchy subject, 'SUICIDE' - I do believe you all may have heard of this quirky little characteristic you humans have. This evening, after a few accidental shots of good old old Wray & Nephew combined with the cancer meds, my lust for kush weed and the newly acquired pneumonia meds. (Yes folks on top of everything else I now have pneumonia - I had a different one in the sixties behind the high school - she spelt her name"Knew Moanforya - just saying) Ok, come on here - damn - suicide is a serious thing!!!!!! ' I know this as fact - I actually did kill myself before and was brought back by two burly EMS angels and a divine misconception or maybe intervention.'    You can read briefly about it in my previously published : "I COMMITTED SUICIDE ONCE" http://dannverner.blogspot.com/2008/07/i-committed-suicide-once.html?spref=bl Now, what brought me to sit and dance on these keys this fine evening was a...