Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

Life is surprising How many times must I add another volume to my autobiography? At the time I wrote my " Walk With Dann Collection" I had not expected to live much longer. My kidneys were a mess. My congestive heart disease was at stage 4. Things were not looking well for me. Then I got diagnosed with the non treatable cancers. So I wrote " Old Man With The 'C' - A Cancerous Walk With Dann". At the time believing my story had come to an end. The cancer diagnoses led to me writing Old Man With The 'C' - a C Walk With Dann". After a horrible 15 month battle I thought once again my life was over. As did all my various doctors. We were wrong. I did die twice through the battle, but alas, the Viking within me refused to lay down. My Cancer team at Princess Margaret Cancer Centre are baffled that I live still. They use words like "miracle". All I know is now I am writing another volume detailing the life and times of The Last Canadian Cosm

It is 2 in the morning. I keep waking to scratch my self. Morphine itches. Side effect of living a life without pain. I have had to up my opioid intake to fight the pain. My neck is swelling. Not good at all. Unlike my face, hands and feet this swelling does not go away.  (My goatee has been doing a good job hiding it, though.) To many I appear healthier. That is the bloating making me appear fat faced. An illusion. I am at the worst stage I have had to deal with. I do not feel well at all. There are numerous things I can no longer do. A flight of stairs is a challenge. Carry groceries home is no longer possible. The neck swelling seems to be accelerating. Almost flush with the tip of my chin. Which scares me. A couple of months ago I was more than willing to ascend. Not now. I want to live. No if’s, and’s or but’s. I have to go on. My wife, my sons and my pups need me. I need them. You can see the shape and massiveness of the tumor at the base of my tongue. Much larger than the camera