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“Patient” I am. “Patience” I have not.

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I refuse to allow nor accept the fact that at present my legs are becoming useless. I still walk my girls at least once per day, even though I sit and cry tears of pain afterwards. The pain I am in is beyond description! 1000 milligrams of M-Eslon morphine three times per day plus my breakthrough doses every two hours do little to quell it. My right leg is the worse – I  have to drag it and put all my weight upon my cane. I am scared but also confident that my care team, especially my nuerologist, Dr S. Suppiah who is one of the world’s highest ranked, will find the cause of what is happening to me. I am positive that my chronic cauda equina and the seven fractured vertebrae in my lumbar are the cause. I was told after my 13th spinal surgery that they cannot operate again due to the condition and degradation of my vertebra. I refuse to give up. I refuse to become permanently confined to a wheelchair. I have faith in my team of doctors. What is bothering me the greatest is not knowi...
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Daily Prompt : "Do you think humans will ever colonize Mars?What would life there actually look like?" June 14, 2026

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Do you think humans will ever colonize Mars? What would life there actually look like? Do I think humans will ever colonize Mars? I think we will die trying. Personally, I think that although we believe our technology is advanced enough to accomplish such a feat  i t certainly is not! Just because we can make it happen doesn’t necessarily mean we can do so successfully. What would life there actually look like? It would be the equivalent of doing life without parole in solitary confinement. Having a group of people confined in such a closed environment, adding in human nature with it’s emotional flaws, and you get a ticking time bomb. Sadly, we humans, no matter how cool and collective, can only tolerate being in confined quarters with each other for a limited period before we will begin to aggravate each other. It isn’t like we would be able to “go for a walk” to reset our emotions and thoughts. Even though humans are “societal” creatures, they are, at the same time, “solitary” an...
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We are a bunch of “Smeagol’s” searching for the “Ring“.

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  I remember a time when going to a sports game was a family affair. The wife and I often took our oldest son to a Blue Jays game and by doing so built a stronger family bond. It was a little “ pricey “, but worth me having to work a couple of hours overtime every now and then. With my second boy we could not afford to go as often, but did go occasionally. There was a nine year gap in their ages and during that gap ticket prices began to slowly creep up. To the extent that I would have to work a day or two overtime to afford the family excursion. By the time son number three came into our perfectly dysfunctional family, going to a sports or concert venue was not even a consideration. Between son one and three there was a twenty year gap. Between sons two and three there was a thirteen year difference. By the time Number Three Son came along the players or performers were getting paid extremely high wages. Attending a game or show was beyond my wallets ability. Fast forward another ...
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Israel Has No Place In My Canadian Values Or Beliefs!

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  I AM DISGUSTED THAT 60,000 JOINED THE WALK FOR ISRAEL IN TORONTO TODAY!!! DUE TO THE AVERAGE PERSON NOT KNOWING THAT NOT ALL JEWS ARE ZIONISTS IS THE CAUSE OF THE GROWING RISE IN ANTISEMITISM. UNTIL ISRAEL’S LEADERS ARE STANDING BEFORE THE WORLD COURT IN THE HAGUE FOR THEIR CRIMES AGAINST HUMANITY WE SHOULD BE SHOWING “ ANTI-ISRAELISM “, NOT “ ANTISEMITISM “! WHY ARE NON-ISRAELI JEWS WALKING WITH THE ZIONIST ISRAELI TERRORISTS? NO TRUE JEWISH PERSON SHOULD CONDONE THE ACTIONS OF ISRAEL! LOOK AT GAZA NOW THANKS TO THE ISRAELI TERRORISTS AND THE WONDERFUL AMERICAN BOMBS THAT THE AMERICAN TAXPAYERS SO WILLINGLY GIVE ISRAEL. “ARE YOU PROUD OF HOW WELL YOUR BOMBS WORK ON INNOCENT, NONCOMBATANT, UNARMED AND DEFENSELESS CIVILIANS AMERICA?”
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Daily Prompt :" Do you believe in minimalism?" June 3, 2026

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I believe in minimalism in a minimalist way.
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How Will I Know?

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  With all the times I have died, how will I know when I am actually dead and not going to wake up on life support yet one more time? I have been legally dead, resuscitated and dependant upon very frightening life support to live thirteen times in the last decade. They were all for medical reasons. I had an additional three other instances in the late eighties and early nineties. I kid you not! These are all documented in my medical history. In many ways they were a curse. All things, good or bad, come with a price. They become very toxic, tiresome and extremely annoying all at the same time. Many years I walked through life in a dark fog of constant worry and fear. “Will it to happen again today?” It was not easy worrying if yet another organ would need emergency surgery, or I had another heart attack or post radiation side effects attack my body once again. It was destroying me! Until the day I snapped out of that paranoid fueled self-pity depression. That day I asked myself how ...
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You Know???

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If I knew that my lessons learned would be the lessons I knew I learned to know that which I now know I knew, then, perhaps, I would know that which I already knew but neglected to know   that I knew I knew. You know???
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This Is Not Good!

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  The abscess is the size of a walnut and oozing puss now. Two weeks ago they did a bunch of tests to see if they could remove my trach. They couldn’t because after having it for these past six years my lungs are too damaged and weak. Oxygen therapy would not make a difference. Without the trach I cannot speak, but worse than that, I cannot breathe properly enough to survive. If I had feeling in my throat and torso I may have discovered it a long time ago. I lost all feeling in my throat from being on life support 13 times in seven years. I NEVER GET THE USUAL AILMENTS. I ALWAYS GET THE WEIRDEST THINGS HAPPEN TO ME. For example, seven years with throat cancer and I still have my tonsils. But …… This is just one of those bumps in the road we all call  ‘life’ . My time is not yet. Of that you can bet.
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Reality! What a Concept!

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     When I sleep is when I am the most awake. On the opposite side, when I am awake is when my mind sleeps. How do we know when we are consciously awake? Is it when we dream of robots dreaming of electric sheep or is it when the darkness of dreaming awakens thoughts best forgotten? How do we know when our dreams are actually reality? Some   believe that dreaming is our crossing over into another plain of this space/time reality. The great comedian, George Carlin, once stated … “Reality! What a concept.” For the majority of my 69 years of life I have agreed with Carlin. Reality is a conceptual interpretation of what the seeker seeks to discover within the reality of the realism their individuality perceives. Often I find myself in a quandary created by my perception of my realities. I balance precariously on a fence post with reality on one side and my expected reality upon the other. It is not uncommon for me to question whether my dreamstate is when I am actually a...
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Daily Prompt - "If you had to describe your ideal life, what would it look like?" May 9, 2026

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  If you had to describe your ideal life, what would it look like? Campers, I can answer this with one simple sentence … My ideal life would look like   how it should appear … “Harmonious”. For a harmonic lifestyle is the best of all lifestyles. In harmony dwells peace and compassion. What more does one need?
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