Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

  Delaney Jordan McLean Verner September 11, 1990 – December 25, 2019 The memories bring back you. If only for a short while. Christmas morning it will be 4 years since suicide stole you from me. I have so many regrets and ‘what ifs’. "What if I was not in Princess Margaret fighting the cancer, what if I hadn’t hung up the phone. What if, what if." I cry every night. Every single night. I talk to your picture. I talk to you about the good times. I cry over the bad times. Your suicide killed a piece of each and every one of us Jordan. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I will set your plate on Christmas day and I know you will be with us. I feel your presence always. I told your story as I promised. It was the hardest thing I have ever done.  Each and every word came with a thousand tears. Every paragraph came with a thousand memories. I hope that your biography will help prevent another family from feeling the pain that rages through my very soul. I will cry Son.  And then

Do these mean that I am on a ‘staple’ diet? 12 days since my emergency cauda equina spinal cord surgery. I am so Blessed that the surgery was successful. I only had a 20 percent chance of success. I give thanks everyday for being able to feel this excruciating pain. I can only imagine how I would be feeling if not for the 12 Oxycocet, 2200 milligrams of various Morphine sulphates and other pain medications I take daily. Plus my ‘ breakthrough ‘ pain medications that I take every hour. 22 staples  – about 11 inches long  – from my tailbone to halfway up my back. 7 fractured vertebra repaired. Healing great on the exterior.  Get the staples removed on the 20th. Be so great to have a shower! It’s at that darn itchy stage – so hard not to scratch it. I am having a difficult time obeying the doctors and Dakota. I am not the type of person who can just sit and chill. Usually, I am pitter pattering around the place, arguing with my invisible friend, walking or playing with my girls,  writing

  Slaughtering of Innocents I have lost all respect for Israel. A respect that they will never receive from me again. It sickens me to see how many innocent,  non-combatants who are being slaughtered.  It sickens me to see how many children and seniors are being slaughtered. It sickens me to see my fellow man allowing this to take place. Israel is committing a genocide, call it whatever you want, it is GENOCIDE! Not every citizen forced to live in Gaza is a Hamas terrorist! Out of the 15,000 plus slaughtered already, how many were Hamas terrorists? And yet, because they are in bed with the American war machine, no one is actually doing anything to stop this ungodly slaughter. Israel will go down in history as war criminals and their committing genocide of the Palestinians will put them right beside the much hated Natzi’s. They are committing war crime after war crime and it is time they be held accountable! Fracking barbarians! They have become just as much a terrorist as the Hamas. Bo