Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

Final Preparations For Jordan’s Celebration of Life February the first is just about here. A day I dread.   The day my wife, Jennifer, my oldest son, Randy, my youngest son, Dakota must say our farewell   to our son and their brother. For those who have asked, here are the details and location of the Service and Reception. Saturday, February 1, 2020 at 4 PM – 7 PM at the Canadian Legion Hall Number 73, 2 Robinson Avenue, Toronto,  (Danforth Avenue and Danforth Road) Anxiety is high for the family. I am worried for my wife. She has been staying strong as she can. Yet, I know how she feels inside. I know she is hiding ninety-nine percent of her pain. She is brave that way. Forget not that she is also watching me slowly deteriorate. Everyday wondering if this is the day Dann passes from his cancer? A father’s love is like no other, also, A strong genetic companionship of the Alpha and his Beta’s. ` Daddy Know`s Best ` so follow your Father and learn to be a good ma...

Christmas will never exist in my life after this year. My son, Delaney Jordan, committed suicide yesterday. December 25th, 2019. Left to Right:Me,Jordan,Randy Left to Right: Jordan, Randy and I. He and his wife, Katelyn, decided to relocate from Toronto, Ontario to Black Diamond, Alberta. They had made the decision to start a new life in a new province with new friends. Alberta was not good to them at all. When they first arrived they did their best to try and secure employment. Kate succeeded by finding a part time job at a subway sandwich shop. Social Services absolutely refused to help them in any way. Even at Christmas. They were actually quite rude to both Katelyn and Jordan. This led to depression for both of them. They could not believe that a government agency could care less that they were homeless and possibly going to freeze to death on the street. They had made plans to scrimp and save until they had enough to return to their native Toronto. Perhap...

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Well, it is June third. The Million Deplorable Canadians are beginning their (OUR) march on Parliament Hill and other locations across our once peacefully beautiful country. This march I feel will show how disgusted the Canadian people are with this so-called Liberal government. Civil unrest is growing across this nation. Our leader has caused much division and hate among us. AND THAT SADDENS AND WORRIES ME. Unfortunately, I am not in the position to attend the Ottawa march but I definitely will be heading to Queens Park. EVEN THOUGH OUR MAYOR IS SAYING WE WILL BE ARRESTED DUE TO THE LACK OF A PERMIT. Sad state of affairs and when you must pay the very people money to protest against their policies. Sad state of affairs when we are FORCED to protest in a democratic society. Sad state of affairs when Canadians are at such odds with each other. BUT, what concerns me the most is my FEAR that Canada may be led down the path of violent civil unrest. Possibly even civil wa...

​I am ashamed as to what we Canadians have done to our Aboriginal peoples, while we bring thousands of possible "ENEMY," so-called refugees over from the opposite side of the world.  We willing pass to them good lives on a silver platter.  And we all sit back with our Canadian pacifier ways and allow OUR Government to demand we change OUR culture, our Laws and most of all, OUR traditions for these barbaric imbeciles.  HAVE WE NOT LEARNED FROM THE HORROR WE INFLICTED ON THE NORTH AMERICAN FIRST NATIONS??? In the meantime,  the First Nation People are living in conditions of what one would expect in the Third World.  What we have done to and the way we have treated the "FIRST" Nations People is beyond a shame.  Here within this blog are a few news links that show a minute piece if Aboriginal peoples lives.  Let's also remember  how we have deprived them of the basics of life such as drinking water or housing.   http://aptnnews.c...

Ontario’s poor excuse of a Premier,  The Dishonorable Kathleen Wynne,  released her budget yesterday. Everyone is excited and patting themselves on the back over “PHARMACARE”.  I have a problem with this. Firstly,  it is aimed at YOUTH!!!! UNDER THE AGE OF TWENTY-FIVE.  What is wrong with that? Well, are our youth so medicated and traumatized  that they need help buying their medication?   Is it not bad enough that we have many of them already saying they need their “medicine” (medical marijuana) and are surviving on welfare or the Ontario Disability Support Program?  BUT SECONDLY  ……. WHAT ABOUT OUR GROWING SENIOR POPULATION?  Common sense would dictate that it is they who need the assistance.  The younger professional welfare recipients are already covered by their drug card issued under the Social Services Act. The elderly have to decide between food, hydro or just surviving These damn Liberal degenera...

So, Trudeau will and is rewarding the refugees  with better living conditions then our own elderly and disabled,  but he is robbing our brave troops!!!!! And where are the protesters now??? Where are the “activists”????? TIME FOR ALL OF US TO SPEAK UP!!!! NEVER MIND “BLACK LIVES MATTER” OR “YUPPIES AGAINST PEANUT BUTTER” OR THE DANCE OF RAINBOW PEOPLE – MARCH FOR OUR TROOPS!!!! AND STOP REWARDING THE MUSLIMS  Click this link to CBC NEWS and see what he has done …….. troops-serving-in-kuwait-lose-major-tax-exemption

The weight that spans my shoulders weighs heavy upon my heart. In a series of almost comedic events my life went from that of hope, peacefulness and routines,  to one of chaos,  hopelessness and fear. I could have avoided all of this if only my building management had informed me immediately of the non-payment of my rent. By their delaying me notice until late September,  I had then accumulated August,September and October's payment all at once. An impossibility considering my income.  And now I am mere days away from losing all my material possessions and the psychological trauma of being homeless with a thirteen year old son.   I have tried all the various resources to no avail.  I am a victim of that social services hole between disability and pension.  Too young to be old and too old to be young. Soon I must face the surgeon's scalpel.  Not once, but at the least twice.  A kidney removal and gall bladder.  I am not ...

The weight that spans my shoulders weighs heavy upon my heart. In a series of almost comedic events my life went from that of hope, peacefulness and routines,  to one of chaos,  hopelessness and fear. I could have avoided all of this if only my building management had informed me immediately of the non-payment of my rent. By their delaying me notice until late September,  I had then accumulated August,September and October's payment all at once. An impossibility considering my income.  And now I am mere days away from losing all my material possessions and the psychological trauma of being homeless with a thirteen year old son.   I have tried all the various resources to no avail.  I am a victim of that social services hole between disability and pension.  Too young to be old and too old to be young. Soon I must face the surgeon's scalpel.  Not once, but at the least twice.  A kidney removal and gall bladder.  I am not ...

I AM TIRED. ....VERY TIRED ​As I sit here fighting this demon at three o'clock in the morning,  I am totally ashamed and disgusted with myself for what I have done to my life and the affect it has upon my child. I cannot recall one minute of my past existence that can compare to the disaster which I now am living. I am lost. I am broken.  I am repairable and I know which path I should be walking on, but I cannot repair myself.  Deep down inside I am struggling with a very dark entity and I am riddled with guilt,  shame, weakness and dangerous emotions. I know I am mentally  stronger than most people.  I know that all things must pass I know I will never take the cowards way out of this sorrow.  I know that I am truly loved by many, many beautiful souls, for it is their love and friendship that fuels my fighter and  logical self. BUT ...... I must confess that I am weak -  I am so very tired.   I fear I have not the ps...

Imagine if you thought today was actually tomorrow and then realized it was actually yesterday. Confusing pondering for sure. Such is my mindset when I gaze upon modern society. I am dumbfounded as to why the vast majority either sees not or chooses not to show concern. Whatever happened to love thy neighbour? Whatever became of lending a helping hand? Where has honour above all dispersed to? I look at the world we have created for my sons and I worry.  I worry that they will mature with the mindsets that violence happens, marriages are disposable and respect is a fable.  So, every night I drift into R.E.M. with a kaleidoscope of fears and anxieties dancing through the windmills of my mind. And I worry for my babies. I am frightened for what they may have to experience in their adulthood's because we, the priors, had no sensibility. Do you worry? Do you have the moxy to change what we have instilled into the id of our youth? Me thinks we best get ...

Does anyone actually believe this B*tch gives a damn about blacks or poor or disabled or elderly????  C'mon, give your head a shake.  To her the blacks, poor, elderly and crippled are a nuisance......  I pray every night that the next election all the lazy asses get up and vote - things will never change unless the POOR VOTE, so that their voices may be heard   http://www.cp24.com/news/wynne-speaks-with-black-lives-matter-leaders-amid-queen-s-park-protest-1.2844709

So, touchy subject, 'SUICIDE' - I do believe you all may have heard of this quirky little characteristic you humans have. This evening, after a few accidental shots of good old old Wray & Nephew combined with the cancer meds, my lust for kush weed and the newly acquired pneumonia meds. (Yes folks on top of everything else I now have pneumonia - I had a different one in the sixties behind the high school - she spelt her name"Knew Moanforya - just saying) Ok, come on here - damn - suicide is a serious thing!!!!!! ' I know this as fact - I actually did kill myself before and was brought back by two burly EMS angels and a divine misconception or maybe intervention.'    You can read briefly about it in my previously published : "I COMMITTED SUICIDE ONCE" http://dannverner.blogspot.com/2008/07/i-committed-suicide-once.html?spref=bl Now, what brought me to sit and dance on these keys this fine evening was a...

Hey people - here is my latest battle and if anyone else is having problems with these undercover loan sharks called ENERCARE please please please write the Ombudsman and Premier's offices. NOTHING WILL CHANGE IF NO ONE FIGHTS!!!! HERE IS WHAT THEY ARE DOING TO THIS WHOLE BUILDING I LIVE IN: Enercare billing system is inconsistent. On November 19, 2014 I received a bill due on November 26, 2014. It was for the amount of $81.94.This invoice covers 18 August till 18 September. Today, November 25, 2014 I received another bill due on December 5, 2014 for the amount of $165.40.This bill covers from the 18 September till 20 October. I was told to expect another bill covering from the 20 October unto 20 of November any day now. I have also noticed that they usually bill in twenty-nine day periods and that each bill has "monthly" service charges. This would mean that Enercare is collecting 13 monthly payments per year. Also, almost every bill has a "late" c...