Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

The weight that spans my shoulders weighs heavy upon my heart. In a series of almost comedic events my life went from that of hope, peacefulness and routines,  to one of chaos,  hopelessness and fear. I could have avoided all of this if only my building management had informed me immediately of the non-payment of my rent. By their delaying me notice until late September,  I had then accumulated August,September and October's payment all at once. An impossibility considering my income.  And now I am mere days away from losing all my material possessions and the psychological trauma of being homeless with a thirteen year old son.   I have tried all the various resources to no avail.  I am a victim of that social services hole between disability and pension.  Too young to be old and too old to be young. Soon I must face the surgeon's scalpel.  Not once, but at the least twice.  A kidney removal and gall bladder.  I am not strong enough to battle this battle with

The weight that spans my shoulders weighs heavy upon my heart. In a series of almost comedic events my life went from that of hope, peacefulness and routines,  to one of chaos,  hopelessness and fear. I could have avoided all of this if only my building management had informed me immediately of the non-payment of my rent. By their delaying me notice until late September,  I had then accumulated August,September and October's payment all at once. An impossibility considering my income.  And now I am mere days away from losing all my material possessions and the psychological trauma of being homeless with a thirteen year old son.   I have tried all the various resources to no avail.  I am a victim of that social services hole between disability and pension.  Too young to be old and too old to be young. Soon I must face the surgeon's scalpel.  Not once, but at the least twice.  A kidney removal and gall bladder.  I am not strong enough to battle this battle with

I AM TIRED. ....VERY TIRED ​As I sit here fighting this demon at three o'clock in the morning,  I am totally ashamed and disgusted with myself for what I have done to my life and the affect it has upon my child. I cannot recall one minute of my past existence that can compare to the disaster which I now am living. I am lost. I am broken.  I am repairable and I know which path I should be walking on, but I cannot repair myself.  Deep down inside I am struggling with a very dark entity and I am riddled with guilt,  shame, weakness and dangerous emotions. I know I am mentally  stronger than most people.  I know that all things must pass I know I will never take the cowards way out of this sorrow.  I know that I am truly loved by many, many beautiful souls, for it is their love and friendship that fuels my fighter and  logical self. BUT ...... I must confess that I am weak -  I am so very tired.   I fear I have not the psychological  nor physical strength left in me

I have never been so embarrassed in my life but I am in a very bad crisis in my life and am in desperate need of assistance and/or  a miracle. Here is a link to the gofundme page that will explain. http://www.gofundme.com/need-help-stabilizing-my-life-2uywn3rc

​Why does the media always say, “It’s a case of being in the wrong place at the wrong time”?   The woman was sitting outside her home. The right place to be during her time. Why don’t they say, “It was a couple of PUKE PUNKS that think life is a fucking rap video and they are too pussy to deal with life like a man”? Should be automatic life – no parole for ANY gun offence. And this is coming from me – THE MAN WHO HAS USED GUNS AND EXPLOSIVES IN COMMITTING CRIMES.  Fracking society is so interested in sex and not offending LGBT that no one is even noticing how much violence is around us. So, why don’t we take all that money being used for chasing rainbows and hire more gangs and guns officers and lock these pukes up?????? And do not even get me started on our court system!  Where else in the world can you get multiple bails?  Especially when you have an extensive criminal record?   Where else in the world do they sentence you to five years for manslaughter,

​Here is  a man that see’s the truth abd even predicted it TWO years ago…. http://www.cnn.com/2016/07/18/us/wisconsin-sheriff-david-clarke-i-predicted-this/index.html

Does anyone else see the similarity between the racism now and that of the sixties? ??? GOOD,  THEN YOU MUST ALSO SEE THE SIMILARITY BETWEEN THE "BLACK PANTHERS" AND "BLM".  No political group operates without a hidden agenda. Both had "Peaceful" marches. Both have or had antagonists in the shadows initiating violence and hatred. Both have or will have blood on their hands.  I witnessed this all my childhood.  I am witnessing it once again,  but this time it is ten fold. Anger brings hatred. Hatred brings racism.  Racism brings anger. Anger brings hatred.  Overstand????? ?

I awoke this morning a changed and scared man. I am scared of what will happen next. Texas and Louisiana are just the tip of this iceberg.  Some  say this goes all the way back to the Rodney King time. It goes further back then that. It goes back to the beginning of times.  Society has always allowed the minority to be treated less civilized than the rich and upper classes. Society has stood by and watched as family values and civil rights have been trampled upon and literally destroyed.  We have raised our youth on fantasy war games and so-called entertainment that teaches death and does so with very realistic graphics. But it does not teach that dead cannot “re-spawn ” and a real assault rifle causes real assaults. Did we not learn anything from history?  Slavery and OPPRESSION built every great city. The pyramids,  the Great Wall, every single city, most of North America was built by Irish, Chinese  and Black slaves.  During my youth I remember Kent State, the racial ten

I begin many conversations with,  “What is wrong with everyone? ” So,  deja vu, but, What is wrong with everyone? Everybody done got their tail feathers in the air.  Blaming the government for their illegal dispensaries being shut down. Turning this into another fiasco created by government agencies and a handful of yuppie activists  (who usually live in million dollar homes in The Beaches). A bunch of young very healthy, stoned, camera hogging opportunists getting their fifteen minutes of fame.  Claiming they can no longer get their  “medical” herb. Oh, and the one crackhead “spokeswoman” who could not say a word without adding a “fuck” to it. Nice job Blonde Hoho – welfare cheque is out tonight.  You were a model voice for the cause. NOT !!! Give my multi persona of a brain a break!!! The legal dispenseries and the on-line LEGAL  avenues are still there. As they ALWAYS HAVE BEEN for legal card holding prescription buyers. Anyone who has an iota of street knowledge

People of Ontario - or rather I should say, "Poor, elderly or disabled people of Ontario, SPEAK UP!!! And for the love of whomever or whatever you perceive your gods to be, please, please, please get up and VOTE next election. NOTHING SHALL CHANGE UNTIL WE UNITE!!! Look at this: How does a single father, like myself, survive healthily and support, nurture, clothe, feed and raise a teenage son when I am paying $11,000 a year on rent, $1,500 per year hydro and trying my best to give my child a good life when my disability pension is a mere $18,000? How? I cannot afford to take transit and having a walking disability means I am grounded at home. I cannot afford to buy clothes or shoes for my child unless we go without food. I cannot afford cable tv.  Our income goes up a mere one percent yearly, yet, our rent goes up twice that amount. I will not even get into the hydro fiasco, lest to say it gives me much stress. EVERY YEAR THE DISABLED AND ELDERLY GET LESS AND L

Imagine if you thought today was actually tomorrow and then realized it was actually yesterday. Confusing pondering for sure. Such is my mindset when I gaze upon modern society. I am dumbfounded as to why the vast majority either sees not or chooses not to show concern. Whatever happened to love thy neighbour? Whatever became of lending a helping hand? Where has honour above all dispersed to? I look at the world we have created for my sons and I worry.  I worry that they will mature with the mindsets that violence happens, marriages are disposable and respect is a fable.  So, every night I drift into R.E.M. with a kaleidoscope of fears and anxieties dancing through the windmills of my mind. And I worry for my babies. I am frightened for what they may have to experience in their adulthood's because we, the priors, had no sensibility. Do you worry? Do you have the moxy to change what we have instilled into the id of our youth? Me thinks we best get on the ball and

Does anyone actually believe this B*tch gives a damn about blacks or poor or disabled or elderly????  C'mon, give your head a shake.  To her the blacks, poor, elderly and crippled are a nuisance......  I pray every night that the next election all the lazy asses get up and vote - things will never change unless the POOR VOTE, so that their voices may be heard   http://www.cp24.com/news/wynne-speaks-with-black-lives-matter-leaders-amid-queen-s-park-protest-1.2844709

What the frack is wrong with everyone and all this political correctness bull manure? Every single day now we are being  FORCED  to bow down to some sort of “correctness”. Money spent, tax payer’s money, could be better spent on much more important debates. Such things as more than a one percent raise per year on pension and old age cheques. The average  rent goes up 3.25% per year, yet Pension and Old Age are only given a 1% raise . We have our down and out citizen’s sleeping on cement while we house refugee’s in hotels. We have changed our school system from having morning prayer and pledging allegiance to the Queen to accommodate a few immigrants who take  “offence” . Today in  Ontario  it was announced that all government forms will have  “Mother”  and  “Father”  removed to accommodate the LGBT community. Here is a link that fiasco: Replacing Mother & Father to be Politically Correct The money spent on this ‘study’ alone could have been better used taking care

So, touchy subject, 'SUICIDE' - I do believe you all may have heard of this quirky little characteristic you humans have. This evening, after a few accidental shots of good old old Wray & Nephew combined with the cancer meds, my lust for kush weed and the newly acquired pneumonia meds. (Yes folks on top of everything else I now have pneumonia - I had a different one in the sixties behind the high school - she spelt her name"Knew Moanforya - just saying) Ok, come on here - damn - suicide is a serious thing!!!!!! ' I know this as fact - I actually did kill myself before and was brought back by two burly EMS angels and a divine misconception or maybe intervention.'    You can read briefly about it in my previously published : "I COMMITTED SUICIDE ONCE" http://dannverner.blogspot.com/2008/07/i-committed-suicide-once.html?spref=bl Now, what brought me to sit and dance on these keys this fine evening was a video I obse

I am a connoisseur of real music. I am 58 years old and many are surprised at the genre of music I listen to. I do listen to all era's of music, but my everyday is who I speak of in this 'Walk With Dann'. By 'real', I mean music in which there is lyrics that actually convey a message or story.  Do not see much of that nowadays in this 'so-called' hip hop/rap genre.  A song is meant to convey a message or enlighten one's  inner soul. Musician's were and are "minstrels".  Minstrel defined by the dictionary as, " singer who performed songs whose lyrics told stories of different places or of existing or imaginary events.   Although minstrels told their own tales, often they would memorize and embellish the works of others ". Who are the top few I consider minstrels?  Here are a few that I have mad respect for what they are speaking to the youth of today. Ill Bill and his brother Necro Vinnie Paz Yelaw