Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

  Delaney Jordan McLean Verner September 11, 1990 – December 25, 2019 The memories bring back you. If only for a short while. Christmas morning it will be 4 years since suicide stole you from me. I have so many regrets and ‘what ifs’. "What if I was not in Princess Margaret fighting the cancer, what if I hadn’t hung up the phone. What if, what if." I cry every night. Every single night. I talk to your picture. I talk to you about the good times. I cry over the bad times. Your suicide killed a piece of each and every one of us Jordan. I miss you. I miss you. I miss you. I will set your plate on Christmas day and I know you will be with us. I feel your presence always. I told your story as I promised. It was the hardest thing I have ever done.  Each and every word came with a thousand tears. Every paragraph came with a thousand memories. I hope that your biography will help prevent another family from feeling the pain that rages through my very soul. I will cry Son.  And then

Do these mean that I am on a ‘staple’ diet? 12 days since my emergency cauda equina spinal cord surgery. I am so Blessed that the surgery was successful. I only had a 20 percent chance of success. I give thanks everyday for being able to feel this excruciating pain. I can only imagine how I would be feeling if not for the 12 Oxycocet, 2200 milligrams of various Morphine sulphates and other pain medications I take daily. Plus my ‘ breakthrough ‘ pain medications that I take every hour. 22 staples  – about 11 inches long  – from my tailbone to halfway up my back. 7 fractured vertebra repaired. Healing great on the exterior.  Get the staples removed on the 20th. Be so great to have a shower! It’s at that darn itchy stage – so hard not to scratch it. I am having a difficult time obeying the doctors and Dakota. I am not the type of person who can just sit and chill. Usually, I am pitter pattering around the place, arguing with my invisible friend, walking or playing with my girls,  writing

  Slaughtering of Innocents I have lost all respect for Israel. A respect that they will never receive from me again. It sickens me to see how many innocent,  non-combatants who are being slaughtered.  It sickens me to see how many children and seniors are being slaughtered. It sickens me to see my fellow man allowing this to take place. Israel is committing a genocide, call it whatever you want, it is GENOCIDE! Not every citizen forced to live in Gaza is a Hamas terrorist! Out of the 15,000 plus slaughtered already, how many were Hamas terrorists? And yet, because they are in bed with the American war machine, no one is actually doing anything to stop this ungodly slaughter. Israel will go down in history as war criminals and their committing genocide of the Palestinians will put them right beside the much hated Natzi’s. They are committing war crime after war crime and it is time they be held accountable! Fracking barbarians! They have become just as much a terrorist as the Hamas. Bo

  https://open.spotify.com/episode/4whkUiPxgsfyp4ZGQ6i3NF?si=32110ba3bc034aa2 I do not understand how people can go through life angry or depressed. There was a time I did. Seems like a lifetime ago. Never again depression will hold onto me, nor drag my heart into misery. Depression pulled me into the void with her cold steely tentacles. The darkness squeezed tightly around my heart, my soul and my testicles. Decades of accumulated tragedy and loss my body’s dark cloak. The monochrome opposite of Joseph’s Technicolor Dreamcoat. Once trapped within the Darkness of despair your life loses it’s direction. There lay no lifes destination. Your portrait of the future a dismal swirling abyss. There are no safe ports in the storms of depression. Your heart saddened by emptiness and self-loathing. Your emotions a turmoil of doubt. Depression is much like cancer. They often walk hand in hand. Feeding off each other’s Darkness and solitary life. The longer it is left untreated the more it sours.

As you can read in my blog, "The Deplorable Way I Was Treated By Toronto’s The University Health Network " , which I published on November 22, 2023, I was in my opinion treated very unprofessional and cruel by all the staff in the ER of Toronto Western. I am not one who will just run away with my tail between my legs and let matters of concern left undealt with. This is the response I received from the College of Physicians and Surgeons of Ontario . (I left out the original email I sent as you can view that on my blog ) Dear D. Verner, Thank you for your email to the College of Physicians and Surgeons of Ontario. As it appears your concerns are related to the care you received by the nursing staff, you would need to contact the College of Nurses of Ontario. I have provided their contact information and a link to their website below: The College of Nurses of Ontario 101 Davenport Road Toronto ON M5R 3P1 Phone: 416-963-7503 Toll free: 1-877-963-7503 Email: PublicComplaints@

 The pandemic taught us many lessons and spotlighted numerous serious flaws in the machine we have labeled, " Society ." With great embarrassment it opened our eyes to the incompetence and neglect our Elders living in many of Canada's " Long Term Care " Residences, are being subjected to. I was appalled by what I learned via the various media outlets and daily newscasts as the pandemic wreaked havoc on the very lives of our beloved Elders. I was ashamed and brokenhearted when we reduced the inhumanity of what was taking place by making it a daily " statistic" on the news. The number of deaths in the residences was becoming a lead story on each and every news outlet and each new report grew more horrific. We should be ashamed of what we allowed to happen in these homes. I am sure many people are. People who do care and genuinely want to change the way we are " warehousing " our Elders. People like the devoted staf

 To: patientrelations@uhn.ca Whom It May Concern: My name is Daniel Arthur Verner,  The reason I am contacting you today is for what I feel and truly believe was a deplorable and prejudiced way I have been treated during the past few visits I have had at the Toronto General and specifically the Toronto Western Hospital . It is a somewhat lengthy situation to explain and I pray that you may bear with me. I will do my best to summarize it as best I can. First off, I have always been extremely impressed with the excellent care I received in the past at the Western Hospital. I have been a long term patient there going back to March 1999 when they gave me a new walk on life by the excellent results of my spinal surgery to restore my shattered C1 & C2 - C5 & C6 vertebrae That said, here lay the reasons that lead up today's complaint. As I am aware that you have access to readily review my case files I will only include the quoted information I feel best assists in the understandi