How Will I Know?
With all the times I have died, how will I know when I am actually dead and not going to wake up on life support yet one more time? I have been legally dead, resuscitated and dependant upon very frightening life support to live thirteen times in the last decade. They were all for medical reasons. I had an additional three other instances in the late eighties and early nineties. I kid you not! These are all documented in my medical history. In many ways they were a curse. All things, good or bad, come with a price. They become very toxic, tiresome and extremely annoying all at the same time. Many years I walked through life in a dark fog of constant worry and fear. “Will it to happen again today?” It was not easy worrying if yet another organ would need emergency surgery, or I had another heart attack or post radiation side effects attack my body once again. It was destroying me! Until the day I snapped out of that paranoid fueled self-pity depression. That day I asked myself how ...