Opinions and Thoughts of LightHouse Dann Verner - Just as he is!

On Christmas Morning, 2019 my son “Delaney Jordan McLean Verner” lost his lifelong battle with mental health issues and addictions. He usually went by his middle name, “Jordan”. To family he was “Bubba” Hence   me titling his biography, “ Black Diamond: Bubba’s Story” The reasons for their predicament do not matter. WHAT HAPPENED CERTAINLY DOES Bubba was homeless, stranded in a small town in Southern Alberta called “Black Diamond”. A few days before Christmas, a  couple of  “ Good Samaritans” took him and his common law   wife   in. A couple with two kids, all of which had good and kind hearts. In the  early morning hours of  Christmas  morning Bubba went into their laundry room and hung himself. The couple’s two children discovered him. Christmas   will never be be the same for those children, nor for us. Telling his story was necessary for two reasons. The first was to alleviate my pain and lessen my sorrow. Truth be told, it failed in that...

  Delaney “ Jordan ” McLean Verner September 11, 1990 – December 25, 2019 I miss you Jordan. Lords know I miss you. I cannot believe it will be seven years on Christmas morning since suicide stole you from  us. I have to cry these tears out. Knowing they will flow again tomorrow. And the next tomorrow. And all the tomorrows to follow. Forevermore . The tears of sadness. There is no other pain like this. I will “ Flip the script ” and cry tears of happiness and love. I will forever remember wejll every second of every good memory. (They were plenty.) I carry a guilt that is complicated to explain. Often I ponder if you would still be in our lives had I no penance to serve? Doing so in the most serious of ways. Penance for the wrongs I commited in my days gone by? Am I that great of a sinner in the eyes of “Them” that they would punish a family member so as to dishearten me? To the best of my knowledge my time is not yet. I must follow my calling or possibly have my calling foll...