FAREWELL MY BROTHER TILL WE MEET AGAIN

I look to the Heavens and I ask “Why?

Why am I outliving every person I know?

Is it to pay my penance for my past life choices?

Am I serving my time in Helheim now?

Is this the punishment I must endure before I cross through that door?

I lost my dearest friend and true Brother, Donnie LeBreton today to the demonic cancer.

I cannot say “Good-Bye Brother“.

I do not want to say those words.

I know that when this demonic cancer finally defeats me I shall see you on the other side. Beit Heaven or Hell, Valhalla or Helheim.

I sit here with tears running down my cheeks and pooling into a lake of sadness above my heart and I look to the sky and again I ask, “Why?”

I lost count of those I have buried. I no longer go to funerals. I have seen too many.

In my youth I made some very evil choices and I ran amuck through life.

You, my Brother, could always reign me in. And many a time you did. 

There has never been a day in my 62 years that I have not thought about you and wished we lived closer.

I have guilt for not making more of an effort to keep in touch.

This will haunt me till my dying day.

I am sorry that I was too sick with my cancer to get down home and be with you.

I will be with you soon my Brother. 

And I look forward to that day.

I have no regrets to leave behind except the sorrow my family and friends shall have.

I have paid my penance.

Today, November 27th, 2019, I shall cry. And then I shall cry some more.

Tomorrow, I will cry harder.

When my time is neigh please be at that door.

I will knock till you answer.

I love you my Brother.

I cannot and will not say,

“Good-bye”