How Will I Know?

 With all the times I have died, how will I know when I am actually dead and not going to wake up on life support yet one more time?

I have been legally dead, resuscitated and dependant upon very frightening life support to live thirteen times in the last decade.

They were all for medical reasons.

I had an additional three other instances in the late eighties and early nineties.

I kid you not!

These are all documented in my medical history.

In many ways they were a curse.

All things, good or bad, come with a price.

They become very toxic, tiresome and extremely annoying all at the same time.

Many years I walked through life in a dark fog of constant worry and fear.

“Will it to happen again today?”

It was not easy worrying if yet another organ would need emergency surgery, or I had another heart attack or post radiation side effects attack my body once again.

It was destroying me!

Until the day I snapped out of that paranoid fueled self-pity depression.

That day I asked myself how can I claim to be a “Realist” and deny the realities of my life!

On that day, I made vows that I live and stand by daily and religiously.

Vow 1

“Under no circumstance do I allow the influences of others, or their drama to interrupt the flow of my life”.

Vow 2

“I stay happy and content, always, no matter what chaos may surround me.“

Vow 3

“Never shall I believe that I am above any other, for we are all the same, woman, child or man.”

Vow 4

“A lesson I learned very well is that ‘Compassion’ is key to ‘Humanity’.”

Vow 5

This fifth vow you will see is as important as important be …

“In order to love any other,

you must first learn to love …

“ALL your versions of your self.”

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So in closing, Campers,

I shall bid you well.

Alive or Dead,

I will live to tell

For even in death,

If you know me well,

Then you will know …

“I will live and be well“